Wolves Riding Bears.

Do you ever get that feeling that you're constantly the bottom of the list for everyone? That, given the chance, people would rather sigh and do nothing than spend any time with you?
Yeah, I get that. A lot.
People generally don't seem to care about talking to me or paying attention to me, and whenever anyone does seem to, you don't need it, or it's from people that you don't really expect to care.
Next to strangers who you met a mere few weeks ago.
Why does this happen?
Surely people you've known for a while should actually give a shit about your existence.
Surely they should care about your well-being or actually being around you and talking to you.
Why do the people you think are worth putting the effort into never seem to want to care?
They're always apathetic or just clearly uninterested in caring for whatever sympathetic need you need.

I am sick to death of having 'friends' that don't even care about talking to me.
Why is it always the case that I have to instigate everything?
I can't remember the last time I was asked if I wanted to do anything interesting or time consuming.
People just don't pay attention.
I often get the feeling from many things that I am not worth anyone's time.
I'm still single, I always get crap off people and my 'friends' always have to give me crap deals about being with them.
It's always like 'Oh, so and so will be there too' or just an excuse not to do anything and when you do get people to do things they say things like 'Oh, I didn't want to do it, but, I didn't want to let you down'
WHAT THE FUCK?!
Why can't things just go well for me for fuck sake?!
I'm sick of settling for fourth place.

You put a thing out on Facebook saying 'Anyone want to do something this easter?' and one person replies to it.
One.